'It’s hard living a double life': Ex-All Black comes out in emotional TV interview

By The Roar / Editor

Campbell Johnstone, a prop who played three Tests in 2005 including two against the British and Irish Lions, has become the first All Blacks rugby player to come out as gay.

Johnstone made the announcement on a New Zealand current affairs television program on Monday, saying he had been “living a lie” and leading “a double life” before acknowledging his sexuality.

“If I open up that door and magically make that closet disappear, then we’re going to help a lot of people,” said Johnstone, who also played 38 Super Rugby matches for the Christchurch-based Crusaders.

“I pushed that side of me down deeper and deeper. I went to some interesting places.”

“If I can be the first All Black that comes out as gay and take away the pressure and the stigma surrounding that whole issue, then it can actually help other people. We’ll know that there is one amongst the All Blacks.

“It would come to the surface when I may have had a bad game and I would look at that side of me and blame that side for it. It slowly starts to affect you and it’s hard living a double life or living a lie.

“And then there’s the other aspect that I’m maybe a little bit sad that we’re having to do this…but if I open up that door and kind of magically make that closet disappear then we’re going to help a lot of people.”

New Zealand Rugby quickly supported Johnstone’s decision to come out, praising him for “having the courage to share his story and helping create a more inclusive game”.

NZR chief executive Mark Robinson said Johnstone’s “strength and visibility will pave the way for others”.

“Rugby is a sport that is welcoming to everyone and a place where people should feel safe to be who they are. We want to be clear, no matter who you love rugby has your back,” he said in a statement.

New Zealand Sports Minister and former deputy Prime Minister Grant Robertson, who is gay, said Johnstone’s announcement was a “big moment” and thanked him for “blazing this trail”.

“Now with the All Blacks another barrier has been broken. I hope it inspires future generations to be open, happy and comfortable. There is still a long way to go, but this feels a very significant step,” he said on Instagram.

The Crowd Says:

2023-01-31T18:45:32+00:00

Wizz

Roar Rookie


Racism , homophobic attitudes aren't acceptable we know the past attitudes were destructive and dangerous but at what point do we get to where Morgan Freeman hopes we do which is don't call me a black man I won't refer too you as a gay man.I hope it's soon because it's not really news anymore it's not illegal so what's the story.

2023-01-31T14:44:34+00:00

AndyS

Guest


I suppose it gives a reality check on all the brave words about inclusion. I honestly would have thought the response by now would have been "so what/who cares", but apparently far from it. Makes you wonder what the reality might be here...

2023-01-31T06:30:19+00:00

EggBeater

Guest


Yep, no longer any need for the “Here comes Johnno, Don’t drop the Soap!” Chants. Good on him for owning up :thumbup:

2023-01-31T04:10:23+00:00

Jacko

Roar Rookie


To me most of us are there now. Media wants a story sadly.

2023-01-31T03:55:17+00:00

Tim J

Roar Rookie


What great courage and this will help others to have the strength to realise the burden being lifted when speaking openly. Johnstone stand up and be proud mate, a very good player when he played and he carry’s the inspiration on for others to aspire to.

2023-01-31T02:40:49+00:00

Charlie Turner

Guest


Yeah he did. Gary Jack was the first one to find out.

2023-01-31T02:32:23+00:00

AndyS

Guest


Can't help wondering if the first step to it not being a big deal, is everyone not carrying on like it is some sort of big deal. The clear implication for mine would seem to be that years after he stopped playing it remains something surprising and clickworthy, and anyone else in the same position is still too scared to stick their heads out of the closet. I would have thought if he is the first AB to make any sort of public pronouncement, the reason was that no-one cared. Apparently they all still do, or everyone thinks they should.

2023-01-31T02:13:48+00:00

ImperialWizard

Guest


Lots of priests were gay too. Doesn’t have to be limited to the military

2023-01-31T02:08:31+00:00

Loosey

Roar Rookie


Ian Roberts (NRL) came out in 1995, nearly 30 years ago!

2023-01-31T01:18:49+00:00

Tooly

Roar Rookie


Some of the greatest soldiers were gay . It had no relevance on their ability !

2023-01-30T23:47:54+00:00

Ex force fan

Guest


Hope we get to the point where being gay is not an issue soon. Should be less important than the colour of your eyes.

2023-01-30T23:45:27+00:00

Ex force fan

Guest


Is it him or us as society that must be blamed if it take someone 17 years to come out? Change is slow, but it is still change.

2023-01-30T22:55:26+00:00

Double Agent

Guest


Someone's gay. Who cares?

2023-01-30T22:51:03+00:00

Jacko

Roar Rookie


Shame he’s the only one with the courage to stand up Why is it courageous to come out and why should every gay person announce it publicly? Maybe other gay players have zero interest in publicly announcing their sexual preferences.

2023-01-30T22:35:38+00:00

jameswm

Roar Guru


My 18yo son said "so, the first ever gay All Black" (tongue in cheek). They are switched on these days. Shame he's the only one with the courage to stand up, but maybe others have privately but it hasn't been news. And I'm not having a go at the ABs - other teams, other rugby codes too. Good on Rugby NZ for their immediate support.

2023-01-30T19:15:29+00:00

Highlander

Roar Guru


Good man Campbell Even in today's more tolerant environment, that took some courage.

2023-01-30T11:45:01+00:00

mrl

Roar Rookie


He’s so brave it took him 17 years!! Better late then never..,surely there will come a day when this is not news…just acceptance.

2023-01-30T10:50:14+00:00

Derek Murray

Roar Rookie


Brave bastard. Good on him. Nothing but admiration for the man

2023-01-30T10:20:02+00:00

Adsa

Roar Rookie


Campbell Johnstone a Champion on and off the field.

2023-01-30T09:40:42+00:00

Ankle-tapped Waterboy

Roar Rookie


>New Zealand Rugby quickly supported Johnstone’s decision to come out, praising him Good. And good on Campbell Johnstone. An example of courage and strength.

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